Death is not something anyone is
prepared for; it’s one of the most unpleasant parts of life that no one
wants to deal with but it is right there, an ever-present theme, an
inevitable part of our existence. That no one knows tomorrow, and that
it is not even assured just makes it all the more crazier.
As humans, regardless of circumstance, we
always want to look forward with hope, to always believe that time takes
care of everything. We hear people say it, and we may try to actually
believe it, too, but in dark times, in times of grief and despair, such
as what Nipsey Hussle’s partner, Lauren London must be feeling now in
the wake of the rapper’s murder, it would be quite difficult to hope, to
believe in silver linings or in sunshine and rainbows colouring the sky
after starless nights as this.
Only a while back, the slain hip hop star and
his actress partner were talking to GQ about their love, how they met
and how great it was to be with each other. They spoke about the
sacrifices they have had to make for each other, to see their
relationship flourish. London gave up a movie role when she became
pregnant with their son, Kross, now two years old.
Nipsey was also credited for always showing up and doing his bit to keep his woman happy.
“Even though you drive me nuts, you pull up, you show up, and you NEVER let me be alone.” London said.
Their colourful photoshoot for GQ and cute
video they made together is, at the time of this piece, one of the
trending videos on Youtube.
As tributary kind words continue to flow in
the wake of the rapper death, one of the sub-themes of the tragedy is
how his partner and baby-mama must be feeling, how devastated she must
be and how rattling it must be, to have the light of laughter and
happiness wickedly snuffed out of your eyes, to have your partner’s warm
hands snatched out of yours by the cold hands of death.
No one can possibly tell how hurt she must be
nor can anyone possibly understand the depth of her pain, but her
present situation, and that of the Nigerian woman whose partner was fatally shot last weekend in Lagos by SACS officials, really brings to the fore, the issue of dealing with the death of a partner.
Of course, nothing quite prepares you for the
loss of a partner but in this tragic week where life’s fatal uncertainty
has hit in the most brutal of ways, conversations as this cannot be
shied away from. It is a part of life and should be addressed head on.
Even though this never really readies you for its effect when it eventually happens, still, it is very important to try.
So how does one deal with the loss of a partner?
1. Really, it’s OK to cry
This may sound cliché but it is necessary to
put it out there that, it is Ok to be strong, and that tears should not
be seen as signs of weakness.
First of all, the act of crying can be extremely cathartic.
Secondly, if your grief is causing tears, then crying is a part of your
grieving process and it is something you have to go through.
2. People around you
In difficult periods as this, you need to protect your space as much as you can. It helps to have a trusted confidante.
Someone to help marshal the people who come
around you, someone who recognises and understands healthy ways of
emotional purging and can let you grieve without stunting the process or
discarding your feelings by asking you to be ‘strong’ in unhealthy ways
such as bottling up feelings or telling you to soldier on without
really addressing your feelings.
3. Talk about it
You’ll need a listening ear during this
period, too. Whether it is instantly or in the days after, you may need
listening ears and it would be fantastic to have people who are willing
to just listen to you, hear you express those feelings of grief and
vocalise the pain.
That's normal and beneficial for the mourning
process. And it is very important to have people who would just listen
again and again.
4. Be honest with yourself
This is perhaps one of the most important things.
There will be people telling you that you will
be OK, and that everything will be fine, and that time will take care
of things. These things are often said with the best intent and may be
true in their own ways, but will things ever be the same again? Not
exactly.
There will be many changes and you need to be honest with yourself about that.
Where there are kids, you have to watch them
grow without their other parent; you will mourn all the things your
significant other will miss out, you may live with unresolved guilt and
regret, your relationship with their family and friends will likely
change, you’ll miss the personal rituals you have with them, you'll miss
the thoughtful little things they used to do, you will miss the things
they did that drove you crazy, and among a host of other stuff, you have
to live the rest of your life without them.
So, really, life won’t be the same anymore and you have to be honest with yourself about that.
5. Life goes on
This will be a tough one to swallow. But in truth, it is what it is.
There'll be days when you may feel like you're
losing the will to keep going. The memories will be haunting early on.
It'll burn each time they come bearing on your mind, reminding you of
what you can no longer have and the dreams that will forever stay
dreams.
It's all part of the process. Eventually, those memories will become fonder as you look back over the years.
But till then, life goes on and you have to keep living. One healing day at a time.
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